SoLowDoughLow
Mediocre grower
Thanks man, and I have been that guy too, following people and shit after cutting me off, flipping out on people for the smallest shit. It sucks that it oftentimes takes a tragedy to put things in perspective.I'm a completely differently person now than I was before the event in some aspects.
Take anger for one. I was the guy who you'd cut off at a stop sign who'd follow you to wherever it was you were going....especially if you flipped me off. Stupid, scary kinda behavior....behavior i'm not proud of now...and bottom line.....things I now see so differently...
now when i pull up to a stop sign or find myself in one of those "WTF DUDE!!!????" situations we all have happen to us...in traffic...in line....wherever...I get this pause within...and in an instant I think "I wonder what happened to them to set them off so....or that wiped their head clean and they really don't even realize what they are doing/did?" There were so many times where I'd go out...in the truck...and go places....and when I got where I was going....I couldn't even remember driving there. My head/thoughts were on my son....or something I saw somewhere sent me off on a time trip.... So now I give a lot of berth to folks...cus fuckinh A..none of it matters....none of it is worth the energy.....and likely...none of it was personal.....it's just more >shit that happens<. We can make it better with understanding...or we can shit on it all by being a dumbfuck.
It's as simple as that.
Sorry to hear about yer cousin man. Yer aunt is gonna need an ear and a lot of extra attention. It's a lonely fuckin place after all the commotion ceases...
Really makes me appreciate and savor the mundane, boring little moments of everyday life that I used to just wish away...