Let It Always Sow A Seed Of Memory

yougrowyourway

yougrowyourway

illgrowmyway
spyralout

spyralout

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yougrowyourway said:
Scary accurate just add multi-ball and you have my mind. Oh and try playing in the dark...😈😏🤪🖤
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For years I tried a buncha shit (drugs included) to shut off my brain...even if just for a moment. No matter what I do it's constantly firing off synapse after synapse. I've just learned to live with it and try my best to wield rather than suppress it. There are definitely times, more often than I'd like, when it can be absolutely overwhelming. Times when even the good herb can take my mind places where nobody would want to be. I just keep on grinding. I'm sure there have been cases of people literally thinking themselves to death. It's just probably called something different and gets all lumped into the same bucket.

Weed. DIY shrink.
 
yougrowyourway

yougrowyourway

illgrowmyway
spyralout said:
For years I tried a buncha shit (drugs included) to shut off my brain...even if just for a moment. No matter what I do it's constantly firing off synapse after synapse. I've just learned to live with it and try my best to wield rather than suppress it. There are definitely times, more often than I'd like, when it can be absolutely overwhelming. Times when even the good herb can take my mind places where nobody would want to be. I just keep on grinding. I'm sure there have been cases of people literally thinking themselves to death. It's just probably called something different and gets all lumped into the same bucket.

Weed. DIY shrink.
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I love my mind even if it doesn't love me. I'm blessed to be as crazy as I am. It allows me to not live in ignorance. I've certainly learned to live with it, a blessing in it's own. If not I'd have eaten a bullet a decade ago. i love myself too much tho I'm pretty amazing lol.
Hmu anytime bro I don't judge and understand more then most.
 
spyralout

spyralout

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yougrowyourway said:
I love my mind even if it doesn't love me. I'm blessed to be as crazy as I am. It allows me to not live in ignorance. I've certainly learned to live with it, a blessing in it's own. If not I'd have eaten a bullet a decade ago. i love myself too much tho I'm pretty amazing lol.
Hmu anytime bro I don't judge and understand more then most.
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I'm not in any negative space but I sincerely appreciate the sentiment. Things are going well. Wasn't a cry for help. Just an attempt to convey a glimpse of a pinball mind at least from my perspective.
 
yougrowyourway

yougrowyourway

illgrowmyway
spyralout said:
I'm not in any negative space but I sincerely appreciate the sentiment. Things are going well. Wasn't a cry for help. Just an attempt to convey a glimpse of a pinball mind at least from my perspective.
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Didn't take it as such nor did I intend for it to seem that way. I see how I came off to now my bad lol.
Jeeze spyr cheer up! 🙃 (Kidding)
Just would be cool to talk to someone with a similar mind. You seem very intune with yourself like I. I could just see that you truly get it.
Besides your ass better not be crying for help when you have all those amazing ladies to comfort your ass. Shit the resident taste tester better stay in a good place. We need you at 110%. Noone else gonna write up the reports with as much love and dedication as you. I could try but Id end up getting up distracted by something entertaining lmao.
 
spyralout

spyralout

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yougrowyourway said:
Didn't take it as such nor did I intend for it to seem that way. I see how I came off to now my bad lol.
Jeeze spyr cheer up! 🙃 (Kidding)
Just would be cool to talk to someone with a similar mind. You seem very intune with yourself like I. I could just see that you truly get it.
Besides your ass better not be crying for help when you have all those amazing ladies to comfort your ass. Shit the resident taste tester better stay in a good place. We need you at 110%. Noone else gonna write up the reports with as much love and dedication as you. I could try but Id end up getting up distracted by something entertaining lmao.
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Thanks for the kind words, really. I'm grateful for the opportunities that I have to do stuff like this and share experiences with others. Just like anyone I have my down days. Can't always be sunshine lollipops and rainbows. It makes me appreciate the good stuff even more. Humans have this thing where an opposite is necessary for us to understand; good/bad, love/hate, hot/cold. Things that don't have a defined opposite are what baffle us and can cause unpredictable outcomes. We don't understand time because there is no opposite, yet it's one of the most significant things that affect our daily lives. An electron travels around finding a proton to attach to it, and vice versa. A neutron doesn't have an opposite so it travels aimlessly looking for that opposite forever. Seal that into a confined space and what do you have? 💣💥
 
Capt C

Capt C

Saltwater Cowboy
H.A.F. said:
I have a cheap 4-stage, and if I add 5ml/gal cal-mag my pH usually steadies in the right 6.5-ish range after a few hours aerating. I always add more stuff, so I always adjust pH anyway.
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I definitely agree with @spyralout on the RO very unstable until you add something to it. I had a RO system when i first started growing and it was puzzling until i figured out how unstable the RO is.
 
H.A.F.

H.A.F.

a.k.a. Rusty Nails
Capt C said:
I definitely agree with @spyralout on the RO very unstable until you add something to it. I had a RO system when i first started growing and it was puzzling until i figured out how unstable the RO is.
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Once my plants are past the seedling stage, I use both the discharge hoses for plant water. ppm is usually about 20-50, and the "waste" hose has already been through everything but the deionization filter. the bad stuff is pretty much gone. Since I doctor everything up anyway (cal-mag, silica, etc.) I haven't seen a difference.

Another thing I do is add cal-mag and silica every time I make water. 5ml/gallon on the cal-mag, and a half dose of the silica blast (2.5ml/gl). During flower if the feeding schedule calls for cal-mag I add more when I mix the nutes. It is also the only thing I don't reduce by whatever percentage I am reducing the nutes.
 
Seed of Memory

Seed of Memory

Paradise Found
@yougrowyourway and @spyralout Thanks for your posts. We've all got our moments and human nature will not be changed in that way. We all need someone to talk to. Everyone takes their experiences differently and it alters their perspective. I'm glad to see you two have also went in a better direction than our minds intended. Drugs, abuse, and neglect sent me down a strange path but I ended up better than i would have without those experiences. Anyway, i shall begin work on my update ✔.
 
Seed of Memory

Seed of Memory

Paradise Found
Last night before i chopped down my girl i did a bit of re-arranging when I did their water and tried to get some decent pics. So i moved the 300w led from the flower tent to the veg tent (which will eventually be the flower tent) and added another fan. My ducting also came in so i got that set up as well. This is pre 2nd fan:
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Gave them some grow big and Cal-mag at 1062 ppm give or take a few as i went through a few gallons. Never dropped below 940 or went above 1150. They were hungry so i fed them.
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So the white widow finally showed some pistils for me. I really think I have figured this scope thing out. Though putting the image in as full image it looks like a thumbnail.
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My little skunk plant seems to grow leaves faster than it grows roots but so far she is sturdy.
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So GS #1 is showing pre-sex of a female. #6 and #3 have pre-sex of what seems to be male. The others do not yet have any signs of sex. I'll just keep observing and see what I can find. Some how #2 went missing in my layout so here it is:
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Seed of Memory

Seed of Memory

Paradise Found
I figured i would grab a couple of pictures after they've been watered and don't look like floppy old maids. Had a set of pistils pop up on GS #2 so if I give myself the benefit of the doubt that is a count of at least 4 females with 2 possible males and 2 unknowns. We shall see. I could be wrong and only have 3 girls. 20200129_220845.jpg20200129_220820.jpg
 
Seed of Memory

Seed of Memory

Paradise Found
yougrowyourway said:
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Holy shit Queen! Looking fantastic! Can't wait to see the difference in the lighting. Smooth move combining the pics into one. 😜🤪😈 how are the temps and humidity?
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Still too high for my tastes. Running 79-82 and around 60 in humidity. I'm working on it. Their watering didn't help but I'll get past it. I can't wait either my friend. I'm stoked. To have both tents going full force 😍. And some 🔥 genetics too. Makes me wanna woot woot! And I love my collage app. From my piercing days. Glad I kept it. Helps keep shit organized.
 
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